Its been 2 years

I used to write here, with a mandatory year end post. They serve you well, when you read them years later, chuckling at some thoughts, at some choice of words and sometimes at the memories. But then, that was before.

There is no longer a need to write, to be heard, to explain your thoughts or to project your philosophies to be absolute. There is no need of anything, really. It's important, but not that important. Not everything worth doing, is worth doing well. There is no place for cynicism that can keep you away from new experiences.  Arrogance & ego decrease drastically at a point, just like it has for most humans who grow old. The shell is gone. People & settings no longer intimidate. Gone are the awkward, serious cynical replies & sulking. No one is sure of anything. You know yourself really really well, yet there is no brake on you. The basic wiring, bias & spontaneity are intact.  Soon that should lead to better observational skills, less interruptions & less talking. Hopefully. Yet parents remain a pain, i suspect that it will always be that way.  There are now more women than ever before, albeit all being temporary. Patience remains elusive. I no longer leave people behind. And i love living alone, i used to think i could never do that. Silly is fun, intellect has its time, trick is to know when to be what. Toxication does not make living better or tolerable, it's just practise & chemistry now. Decisiveness & impatience are very different things.

Loads of firsts this year, much more than ever before. Never felt this good.And that is about it.


Sayujya said...

I love your year end/year beginning post. :) It mirrors my thoughts almost exactly!

Soin said...

you still read! of course ya same boat etc etc